The Suicide Engineer – Creepypasta

The suicide engineer

Estimated studying time — 18 minutes

NOTE: I’m a good friend of Andrew Talbot, the person that despatched me this recording.

I not too long ago obtained an e-mail from Andrew that contained a recording of his podcast that, to my information, by no means aired. There was no rationalization as to why he had despatched it to me. There was only a request that I distribute it. Once I tried to name him to seek out out what was occurring, I used to be unable to get by way of. The decision didn’t go to voicemail; it simply beeped twice and hung up every time that I attempted. Over the previous few days I’ve known as a number of instances and have gone over to his home twice, however I haven’t been capable of attain him.

Each time I’d attempt to add the podcast to a web site as he requested, there would all the time be an error message. It doesn’t matter what I did, I couldn’t get it to correctly add. Due to this, I wrote a transcript of the recording in order that I may as an alternative distribute that. That is the primary time that I’ve ever achieved something like this, so I’m certain that there are some errors in formatting.

Andrew, if you happen to’re studying this, please let me know that you simply’re all proper.


On April 18, 2022, Carolyn Blake dedicated suicide.

Her physique was discovered when her downstairs neighbor reported water leaking by way of the ceiling. Pondering that there was a burst pipe, the owner had knocked at Carolyn’s door for practically twenty minutes to attempt to acquire entry to her house. It was simpler to go in by way of her ground quite than by way of the complaining tenant’s ceiling. She didn’t reply, and after checking together with his lawyer that this certified as an emergency permitting him to enter with out permission, he unlocked the door utilizing his grasp key and went in to carry out the restore.

The owner found her physique within the rest room. She was mendacity totally clothed within the bathtub along with her wrists slit. The water had been left working, and it poured over the facet of the bathtub like a waterfall because it drained into the ground vent and soaked into the ground and wooden trim.

I didn’t know Carolyn. It’s a small city, so I’ll have handed her in a retailer or ran into her in a restaurant, however I don’t bear in mind if one thing like that did occur.

I’d prefer to say that her loss of life had an impact on the group. Possibly folks holding a memorial, and even asking the city council to enhance the best way psychological well being packages had been dealt with to assist stop this type of factor from occurring once more. That’s what I’d prefer to say. What really occurred was, effectively, nothing. Carolyn’s loss of life was only a blip on the radar that the overwhelming majority of individuals didn’t even register.

One of many exceptions to this was Ray Carsten. I had identified Ray since first grade, and whereas we had by no means been significantly shut, we had all the time been on pleasant phrases. When he known as me three days after Carolyn’s suicide, I shortly agreed to satisfy him on the identical Denny’s that a big group of us had gone to after each house baseball sport in highschool.


Fuck. I feel…

[Short pause]

Okay, perhaps not. It may need simply been…

[Short pause]

Ray informed me that he had identified Carolyn for a number of years. They labored in the identical workplace, and so they had grown significantly shut whereas engaged on a challenge that had been assigned to them. One factor led to a different, and so they started a relationship.

The issue was that Ray was married. Fortunately married, as he put it. I’ve my doubts about that since in my expertise fortunately married folks don’t are inclined to have long run affairs, however that’s what he informed me.

Due to this, he was frightened that she may need left one thing behind that might expose their affair and get again to his spouse. In some unspecified time in the future she had launched him to her mom, and he had satisfied the aged lady to let him assist with going by way of Carolyn’s issues and getting the mandatory preparations made. This had allowed him to rummage by way of her late lover’s possessions with impunity. Her mom had been grateful for the help and had thanked him profusely for it, if you happen to can consider it.

Ray had managed to examine all the things apart from Carolyn’s cellphone. It was password protected, so he wasn’t capable of finding out what was on it. That’s why he got here to me.


…arted this podcast about electronics and know-how, I by no means thought that it could result in outdated acquaintances asking me to undergo useless folks’s telephones. That’s what Ray wished me to do, although. He didn’t simply want me to unlock the telephone. That might solely have gotten him to date. Carolyn had frequented a number of social media platforms, and he or she used dozens of various apps that he knew of. What he wanted was for me to undergo all the things and ensure that all mentions of the affair had been eliminated.

At first I refused. I used to be well mannered about it, however simply the considered doing what he was asking disgusted me. He saved urgent. He informed me that he had already wished to finish the affair and had deliberate to take action, however she took her personal life earlier than he was capable of. He mentioned that if the connection was uncovered it could harm not simply his spouse, but additionally their two kids and so they didn’t need to have that occur to them. I finally relented and agreed to do what he requested, below the situation that he give me the telephone and never be current whereas I labored.

I had already began to rationalize issues in my head. We’re all exceedingly good at doing that after we know what we’re doing isn’t proper, aren’t we? I satisfied myself that since Ray wouldn’t be seeing something, I’d be defending Carolyn’s privateness as a lot as attainable. That’s a load of bullshit, clearly. I’d have really been defending it if I hadn’t agreed to interrupt into her cellphone within the first place.


I don’t know if I’m about to admit to against the law right here. Is it against the law to interrupt right into a useless particular person’s telephone? Whether or not it’s or not, I’m not going to fake that it wasn’t fallacious. It completely was. It’s simply… It’s simply not what’s vital proper now.


It wasn’t arduous to unlock the cellphone. All I wanted was to hook it as much as a pc and use a program that’s free and simple to seek out if you already know the place to look. Most individuals could be shocked at how unsecure their supposedly safe telephones are. That goes for many items of know-how at the moment, however you’re not right here to hearken to a lecture on correct tech safety and I’m not right here to offer one.

I wasn’t certain the place to start out wanting, so I opened the calendar and started to examine appointments and reminders. I didn’t discover something that needed to do with Ray. I moved onto the Notes app and as soon as once more got here up empty. It wasn’t till I began digging by way of her e-mail that I discovered one thing of curiosity.

I most likely ought to have realized that one thing was off when the inbox was fully empty. Carolyn had been useless for 3 days. Anybody that makes use of their e-mail for on a regular basis use can inform you that no less than one or two spam emails will get previous your filter and wind up in your inbox over a 3 day interval. On the time I didn’t consider that. I used to be so preoccupied with hurrying up with what I had agreed to do this my crucial pondering abilities didn’t have time to catch up.

Once I checked the trash folder, I discovered a whole lot, if not hundreds, of automated notifications that had been deleted. They had been from all corners of social media and content material websites: YouTube, Fb, Twitter, Tik Tok, and plenty of, many extra. Each notification was marked as having been learn. I did a bit extra digging, and I discovered that they’d all been despatched inside the span of per week. I picked one at random and opened it.

The notification was for a brand new touch upon a video that Carolyn had posted, and it wasn’t flattering to say the least. The poster, display title YrlGrl, had gone on a rant about how dangerous the video was and that they had been going to be unsubscribing from the channel due to continued poor content material. That’s drastically cleansing up the language that was used. The whole submit was phrased in such a means that it learn like a private assault.

There was a hyperlink to the video in query. I tapped on it and watched the primary minute or so of the video. It was a make-up tutorial that Carolyn had posted. It wasn’t one thing that I used to be focused on, however judging by the variety of views it had and what number of followers she had, it was undoubtedly one thing that many others loved.

Now that I had some context, I scrolled right down to the feedback to find the submit by YrlGrl to see if different folks had replied to it. I discovered the submit, however it wasn’t something just like the notification had mentioned. It was as an alternative a glowing evaluate that went out of its approach to reward Carolyn and the content material that she supplied. That was odd, clearly, however I figured that there had been two posts and the unfavorable one had been deleted.

I started to doubt that concept as I went by way of extra of the notifications. All of them had been dangerous, with a lot of them bordering on hateful. Once I would examine the platform they had been supposedly hosted on, although, I’d all the time discover a constructive submit. One thing very odd was occurring.

I got here to an e-mail that was a response to a criticism that Carolyn had filed with a website administrator a couple of significantly disgusting remark. The administrator had despatched again a response saying that they hadn’t discovered any proof of harassment, and that they’d checked to ensure the remark in query hadn’t been deleted or edited. They didn’t come proper out and say it, however it was strongly implied that they believed she was making your entire factor up.

She had connected two gadgets to her unique e-mail. The primary was a duplicate of the unique notification that she had obtained. The second was a screenshot that she had taken of the remark. The picture included quite a few different feedback as effectively, all of which had been unfavorable. Once I tracked down these feedback, nevertheless, none of them contained the identical message.


…wrote on Fb about how she was feeling down after the onslaught of unfavorable feedback. Her mom and quite a few mates replied to the submit, and all of them mainly informed her that she had grow to be each a whiner and a disappointment in some extraordinarily colourful language. The messages had been lengthy and intense, and I felt myself rising increasingly more sympathetic in direction of Carolyn. No one deserved the quantity of abuse that she was receiving, particularly from the those that she was closest to.

I took a break for about an hour. In some unspecified time in the future throughout the course of, I had begun to care much less about serving to Ray weasel out of his affair being found and extra about determining simply what had triggered this avalanche of hatred in direction of Carolyn. Not one of the items, particularly the feedback seeming to magically change between unfavorable and constructive, appeared to suit right into a coherent picture.


…sten to it, however I figured that I’d already come this far. I clicked on the voicemail and nearly instantly wished that I hadn’t.

What adopted was a virtually 5 minute lengthy message from Carolyn’s mom berating her daughter. It tore into each side of her life; there didn’t appear to be any line that the girl wouldn’t cross. At one significantly horrible level, she said very matter-of-factly that the one motive that Carolyn had been born within the first place was as a result of she hadn’t been capable of afford to terminate the being pregnant after changing into pregnant from a person apart from Carolyn’s father. I solely managed to get by way of half of it earlier than I ended the playback. I couldn’t abdomen any greater than that.

The second voicemail was from Ray. She had obtained it lower than an hour after getting her mom’s voicemail. If the primary message had sickened me, this one made my blood boil. In a really condescending tone, he proceeded to speak about each flaw he noticed in her in nice element. He tore into all the things from her intelligence to her appears to be like to even her lovemaking abilities. It was brutal to hearken to. It was nearly a aid when he lastly declared that their relationship was over and hung up the telephone.

I used to be reaching for my very own telephone even earlier than the recording had ended. Friendship be damned, I wasn’t going to assist somebody that might be that merciless to a different human being. The quantity was entered and my thumb was over Name when a thought made me pause.

Ray had informed me that he had been on the point of break off his relationship with Carolyn when she had dedicated suicide. In line with the voicemail he had left, although, he had already achieved so. Why had he lied to me about that? There didn’t appear to be any level to it. Had he been feeling responsible about his message having probably contributed to her taking her personal life?

I assumed again to the mysteriously altering on-line messages.

I used to be beginning to suppose that maybe-


I discovered that Carolyn had downloaded an audio file the day earlier than her loss of life. A girl’s voice, quiet and stage, performed from the telephone’s speaker once I tapped on the file. It took me a number of seconds to understand that I used to be listening to an autonomous sensory meridian response recording, also referred to as the a lot much less taxing to say ASMR. For those who don’t know what that’s, it’s mainly voices and sounds which might be recorded in such a means as to elicit a bodily response from folks. You recognize that odd tingling sensation that you simply get typically in your head? ASMR recordings are purported to set off that.

Lots of people, much more than you most likely suppose, use ASMR movies on YouTube or audio recordings to loosen up and even go to sleep. They don’t work for everybody, however many individuals swear by them and use them as a part of their on a regular basis routine. After the stress that the entire sudden negativity in her life will need to have triggered her, it was no marvel that Carolyn had regarded for one thing to assist relieve it.

Quite than attempt to clarify the recording on her telephone, I’d prefer to play a portion of it. A fast warning: there’s some questionable content material in it, so if that type of factor bothers you, I’d advocate skipping forward till you’re previous it. If I’m capable of get this posted I’ll attempt to depart markers on the timeline so that you’ll know when it’s over.

Right here it’s. I’m not going to disclose the title of the one who made it or the supply it was downloaded from, for causes that might be extraordinarily apparent in only a bit.


Typically it’s finest to take a step again, take a deep breath, and attempt to let go of all that stress that you simply’re feeling. I do know that life will be arduous typically, and all of us have our private crosses to bear. It may well really feel such as you’re being overwhelmed, such as you’re being smothered. It’s vital to keep in mind that there are all the time different folks you could flip to once you want consolation and reassurance.


Typically we have to ask ourselves what we’d do if we didn’t have these extremely vital folks in our lives. Think about how lonely that might be. If everybody in your life had turned in opposition to you, what would you do?

I feel that if everybody was turning in opposition to me, I’d must take an excellent arduous take a look at myself. All of these folks couldn’t be fallacious. What did they know that I didn’t? What was so fallacious with me that it invited such disdain and hatred? There must be one thing for everybody to behave that means.

How about you? Have you ever ever skilled all your family and friends turning their backs on you? In that case, did you look deep inside your self and determine why you’re so repellent to others?

I feel that if it was me, I must determine if the folks I cared about had been higher off with out me of their world. In spite of everything, is my one life extra vital than the happiness of all these different folks? No, in fact not. I like my household and mates. I would like them to be comfortable, way more than I would like myself to be. If my being gone was what would make them comfortable, then wouldn’t it’s higher for everybody if I used to be just-




There’s extra, much more, however I’m certain that you simply get the thought. I’m additionally certain that you already know the place that is main. I tracked down the location that Carolyn had downloaded the ASMR recording from, and once I performed it there it was nothing just like the model she had downloaded. It was as an alternative targeted on one thing known as Reiki, which I’m not acquainted with however was clearly not one thing sinister.


Within the Downloads folder I additionally discovered a duplicate of a current financial institution assertion from her on-line account. It confirmed that the account had contained an honest financial savings till per week earlier than Carolyn’s loss of life. At that time it had gone to zero. The change in stability was listed as a teller withdrawal. It was some huge cash to have been taken out in a single transaction.

Due to all the things that I had come throughout to date, I used to be instantly suspicious. I went by way of the telephone’s name historical past for the date she had downloaded the doc and found that she had made a name to the customer support quantity on the backside of the assertion. The decision had lasted over an hour. It appeared to me that Carolyn hadn’t been the individual that emptied her account, and when she had checked her account and seen that it was empty, she had known as the financial institution to get it corrected.

In her ultimate days Carolyn had been below assault mentally, emotionally, and financially. It will need to have been hell.

This assault had clearly been engineered. I simply couldn’t see how that might have been attainable. On-line posts on main social media platforms that appeared one approach to somebody however fully completely different to everybody else? Audio recordings that had been magically completely different for one obtain? And the financial institution withdrawal had been a teller withdrawal, which means that somebody had gone right into a bodily financial institution location and brought the cash out of the account. How may which have occurred? That wasn’t even stepping into the voicemails.

As somebody who has to recurrently do loads of analysis within the tech business, I knew that the message and recording modifications ought to have been unattainable. It will technically have been attainable to focus on a single system like that, on this case a cellphone, however to do it in actual time? That’s the place it crossed into the realm of fantasy. Even when there was a approach to do it, it could have required loads of manpower. An enormous conspiracy in opposition to a single small city authorities worker didn’t make any sense.


One after the other I went by way of all of the apps on Carolyn’s telephone. I had fully deserted the unique plan of eliminating references to her affair with Ray. As an alternative, I used to be now solely trying to find different indicators that her life and wellbeing had been tampered with.

There have been quite a few issues that I discovered that I’d have dismissed as unimportant if I hadn’t particularly been on the lookout for oddities. For instance, her newest Instagram posts had considerably much less interactions than earlier ones had, to the purpose that there may as effectively have been nothing in any respect. The identical went for her Tik Tok account.

Most regarding was that I began to see a sample rising on non-social media apps as effectively. All of her content material solutions on Netflix and HBO Max had been miserable tales or contained characters that commited suicide. I attempted clicking on a number of of Carolyn’s beforehand watched motion pictures and reveals that weren’t these solutions, however every time an error message would pop up saying that the content material wasn’t at the moment accessible and to attempt once more later. The recommended reveals, nevertheless, would immediately begin to play.


I lastly ran out of apps to examine aside from one. I had been purposely avoiding it. Throughout the hours that I had been going by way of Carolyn’s telephone, I had been invading her privateness. As I’ve mentioned already, it wasn’t proper and it’s not one thing that I’m pleased with having achieved. The final app would take that invasion of privateness one step additional, although. It was the feed and recordings from her house safety cameras.

I compelled myself to click on on the app. There was little doubt in my thoughts that Carolyn had been focused and pushed over and over till she had lastly taken her personal life. I wanted to gather each little bit of proof that I may and switch it throughout to the police. I’d most likely get in bother for what I had achieved, however it was value it to have the authorities look into whoever had achieved this to her.

There have been solely three digital camera footage recordings listed on the app. Each had a time and date stamp, and all of them had been listed as having been captured when a movement sensor was triggered. All of them had been inside a number of days of Carolyn’s suicide. Taking a deep breath, I began the primary recording.

It confirmed a lady in her mid to late thirties strolling in direction of the digital camera. The shot was at an odd angle, and it took me a few seconds to understand I used to be watching footage from a doorbell digital camera. I acknowledged the girl as Carolyn from her social media photos. She stopped a number of ft from the digital camera and dug round in her pocket earlier than producing a set of keys. As she did so, her face tilted at an angle that allowed me to see the darkish circles below her eyes. She regarded exhausted.

She discovered the important thing that she was on the lookout for and inserted it into the lock. When she went to show it, nevertheless, she struggled to take action. She fought with the lock for a second earlier than stepping again and looking out on the key she was holding. It was now damaged. She stared at it blankly earlier than her face screwed up in anger and he or she threw it to the bottom. She leaned ahead and positioned her head in opposition to the door. It was arduous to inform from the angle, however I assumed that she was crying.

I felt horrible for her. She was being put by way of a lot, and it was clearly sporting her down. I couldn’t think about what it could be prefer to undergo one thing like that.

The second recording was fully black, and it was unattainable to see something on it. I assumed that there was some type of error, however there was nonetheless audio. Both the digital camera hadn’t correctly recorded or it was simply too darkish for the digital camera to light up. I may hear a sequence of strange whispers that had been too faint to make out phrases. There was additionally a buzzing noise that I couldn’t determine.


When you’re nonetheless with me so far, I’m hoping that implies that you perceive that this isn’t some type of elaborate joke or prank. I… I get how this all sounds. It’s about to sound rather a lot worse. When you already suppose that I’m loopy, you’re about to listen to one thing that’s going to set that in stone in your thoughts. When you don’t suppose that, you most likely will quickly.


The third and ultimate recording was from a digital camera in a hallway. It was angled in order that it was pointing by way of an open doorway. This was Carolyn’s bed room. The mattress might be seen on the correct facet of the opening, and to the left was a small desk or desk with an open laptop computer on it. The picture was that odd black and white that you simply get when a safety digital camera is in evening imaginative and prescient mode. In line with the time stamp, the recording was happening at 2:54am the morning of Carolyn’s suicide.


The… factor got here into view from the left facet of the bed room. It leaned down from the highest portion, and at first I assumed that it was extraordinarily tall. That wasn’t the case, although.

I’m going to attempt to describe it. I’m sorry if I don’t make loads of sense whereas I’m doing so. Each time I’ve tried to take action it seems like the bounds of the English language make it unattainable to take action correctly.

It was being lowered by skinny sinuous tendrils. The creature itself was… Fuck, how do I put this. It was only some inches vast, however was the peak of an individual. It was like the pinnacle and physique had been only a masks and protecting being manipulated by the tendrils quite than an precise determine. Three arm-like appendages reached out in direction of the mattress, every ending in skinny delicate strands that acted as fingers.

Due to the circumstances of the recording, with it being so darkish and the low decision of the digital camera’s evening imaginative and prescient, it was troublesome to make out any additional particulars. I used to be grateful for that.

The creature slowly pulled the blanket off of the mattress. It launched its grip and allowed the material to fall to the ground. One of many appendages slowly stretched out by way of the open door and into the hallway. The fingers touched a thermostat connected to one of many partitions and turned the dial all the best way to the left. The appendage retracted, and the creature pulled again up out of sight.

Minutes handed because the recording continued. I began to marvel if the rest was going to occur when a pair of legs swung out over the facet of the mattress. Carolyn obtained away from bed, her arms folded tightly over her chest as she visibly shivered. She went out into the hallway and checked the thermostat. Turning it again to the place it was earlier than the creature had adjusted it, she put a hand on the wall and leaned in opposition to it for a second. She regarded like she was about to break down from exhaustion. She gathered herself and went again into the bed room, choosing up the blanket earlier than getting again into mattress.

The recording ended.


I watched it again… I don’t know what number of instances it was. I simply saved replaying it over and over. Irrespective of what number of instances I watched it, I simply couldn’t power myself to just accept it. Probably not.

I’m making an attempt to determine learn how to put this in a means that basically explains how I used to be feeling. It was like being in a automotive accident. When it occurs, you already know intellectually that you simply had been simply in a collision. The proof is true there in entrance of you: the twisted steel, the damaged glass, the scent of smoke. Even once you’re staring proper on the wreckage, although, there’s this bizarre disconnect that doesn’t can help you grasp what’s simply occurred to you.

That was what I used to be experiencing whereas I watched the safety digital camera footage on loop.

I’m undecided what viewing I used to be on once I started to query why it was even occurring in any respect. Why was this creature pulling off a blanket and adjusting a thermostat? It appeared juvenile, one thing on the identical stage as a school prank.

I most likely ought to have put it collectively quicker than I did, however my thoughts was nonetheless reeling. It wasn’t the actions themselves that had been vital. It was the end result. The creature was depriving Carolyn of sleep. That was the final part it wanted to push her previous her breaking level.

The creature had made certain that each one roads led to her taking her personal life.


I haven’t taken any of this to the police. That was my unique intention, and I’d if I assumed that it could do any good. The issue is that none of this may be corroborated. I’ve, what, some screenshots that the websites themselves mentioned weren’t correct and a few grainy movies? From their perspective I’d simply be the nutjob podcast host that’s utilizing a tragic occasion to drum up curiosity in his present.

That is the place Carolyn Blake’s story involves an finish. It’s sadly not the place the story as an entire does.

Twenty-four hours in the past, I came upon that Ray Carsten dedicated suicide. A single gunshot wound in the correct temple. The second earlier than the set off was pulled he was there, and the second after he wasn’t.

I known as his spouse to supply my condolences. We obtained to speaking, and I don’t know if it was the grief or some must get it off her chest or what, however she informed me that the day earlier than he died a lady had proven up on their doorstep whereas Ray was at work. The lady had introduced her with a stack of images and e-mail data exhibiting in nice element that Ray had been having an affair. That very same lady had then recognized herself as Carolyn Blake.

It didn’t take a genius to place two and two collectively. The creature from the safety footage had gone after Ray, and it had as soon as once more been profitable.

This morning, I woke as much as a textual content on my telephone alerting me that my checking account was overdrawn. 1000’s of {dollars} had been simply… gone. I additionally obtained discover that my podcast is at the moment suspended whereas it’s being investigated for violating the phrases and circumstances of the internet hosting website.

It’s my flip to be focused. I’m hoping that as a result of I really know what’s occurring, I can get by way of what’s about to return my means. That’s what I hope.

There’s no means of figuring out what plan the Suicide Engineer has for me.


Credit score: Tim Sprague

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